I missed my yearly post of reflection & resolution.

I feel that at this age, you actually have less to say about everything.
I think mostly because, you have so much holding inside you you really don't know where to start.

But that's alright, we can take it slowly.

So I have never expected any of these for this 6 months internship.
Can I just say, it's the happiest period of time I felt since I graduate from YSS? It's not even exaggerating, it's just a fact that I haven't been able to say it out loud, or perhaps I'm just afraid that I'm gonna jinx it. But since 2011 is over and nobody is gonna take away these 6 months of memories from me, I'm just gonna let myself go.

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes they're memories made
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

How can you, just come along and make me feel all alive again? 
I really really appreciate that, you have no idea how grateful I felt towards you.
Who am I to deserve, wonderful people like you?
So I just wanna say, in 2012, in life, you deserve nothing but the best.

2011 is all about the pursue of happiness.

In the past 6 months, 98% of the time, I wake up smilling to myself thinking, what a beautiful thing this is, to be alive. And the 2% of the time? I just forgot to smile.

Finally I think, I found the key.

Being nice to someone doesn't equal to getting the same back in return.
But it is, an investment that you should take, because if not, I will not feel as grateful as I'm now. Once again, people don't live in solitary, we constantly seek out to connect with others so that we can feel alive.

2012, I hope you find the courage in you EB.
♥

hello, I wish you're well.

♥

Usually after we experience a series of good things follow a series of bad things, right?
But, would that mean that its vice versa?

If yes, then, perhaps I wouldn't mind the fucked up things so much in the future.
It's probably a fair, natural cycle.

You know, I dont know what to think.

Have you ever had that feeling of, everything is falling apart?
Many times right.
What about this emptiness where you think that happiness might not be able to last that long?
Sometimes I take? Once in a while perhaps?

But the question is, how do you wave this fucking feeling away?

I wonder how does the end of the world look like. Do we actually get to see it fall apart by pieces?
You just sit quietly and wait for it to happen - perhaps there isn't anything you can do about, perhaps there is.
But you still just sit quietly over at a corner, waiting for it to happen.

I think it's time.

When you just wanna run away as far as you could, just so you can get a glimpse of life, other than yours.

But that's when you realise that you can't, because no matter where you go, you still carry your life round your back; Whenever you stop and look back, you will realise, it has never changed. It was just being dragged on.
So realising this EB, stop running away, turn around and confront it hard on, till you're free being on your own.

Everything will be fine.Things are vulnerable as it is, as if nothing belongs to you and it all will turn into dust when you leave it long enough.
But, you'll find the strength.

To close your eyes, listen to your heart and start believing again.
Everything wil be fine yes.

But you know what, I'm fucking tired of all this today.
Bye.

What can I write about myself?

1. Mayday is my life.
   Honestly it is, this is not a simple idol crush or whatever bs. For many many many years, Mayday saved, and still is affecting my life. I think world is so much better and tolerable because of them. I'm standing here today on the path towards to my dream because of them; I have the strength to say no to things while challenging the unknown fact in life because of them. Life is goddamn unpredictable game, but, I will continue fighting.
2. I really don't enjoy maid services.
   I honestly don't feel comfortable having them doing the chores for me, I always ended up saying too much sorry and thank you to them. But I gotta admit, I really really appreciate their help. I'm too lazy to do anything. Yes men, good luck.
3. I have scars all over myself.
   Causes ranging from playing with stainless steel door, hot iron, fell down twice on my knee, burned by hotbox, kicking into bus steps, burned by coffee steamer... Sorry mom, I will try to take better care of myself.
4. I'm attracted to guys who are much older than me.
   As in like my idols? They're all over 30s. Mayday, Jon Steward, Stephen Colbert, Seth Macfarlane, Misha Collins, Jensen Ackles, Jarred Padelecki, Johnny Depp, Christian Bale, RDJ, and the list goes on and on. But they're gonna be over 30s for sure. What? At least I'm not a pedophile who is attracted to Justin Bieber?
5. My mood changes faster than the speed of light.
   Ok maybe not that exegerrating but something similar. Especially when you walk slow, inefficient, constantly complaining about life but that's cause you didn't do shit about it, I'm gonna blow. Quote Russell Peters, "Be a man, do the right thing!".
6. I think social media sucks.
   Haha! Ok that's abit harsh, but thats kinda how I really feel. Undoubtely it is an excellent tool to network and stay in contact with people, but at the end of the day, I really dont need people that is not in my life stays in the update portion everyday. Damn useless. So yea, I prefer the stone-age way, catching up is through meeting up and real laughter with each other.
7. I have gained quite a lot of weight since secondary school.
   I'm still uncomfortable with myself, which is quite sad. But I will be, I'm positive. So until then, this will be my secret :P
8. Dessert is the most important course of a meal - in my opinion.
   It's only natural that you check the dessert list when you got a menu no? And always save your stomach for desserts yay!! :D
9. Loves apples!!
10. Family & friends are the basis of life ♥

So I'm gonna start on this 12 days challenge.

Well, I'm gonna start on the next post la.
But... can I cheat? I feel like answering all of them in one shot. XD

I miss studying, I even miss Aussie.
There must be something wrong with me la @@
Life's here is great so far, so grateful :]

So I'm 20 years old. What do I really really want in life?
How do I wanna die? What conclusion am I gonna come to when I'm 70?
Still uncontented like this? God I hope not.

Anyway, need to travel.
That's a damn good way to clear up one's mind. Soon soon, definitely.

I think my colleagues are cute.

So today I was trying to raise a purchase request, when I was required to fill in vendor profile, I did a cut-paste onto the electronic form from the email that I have got from my manager. Nothing extraordinary happened there, like basically simple task, pretty straight forward.
I close the screen for vendor information, and move on to the actual purchase request form.

Then something stupid happened when I was trying to select the vendor.

So instinctively I return to the email attempting to copy & paste again, seeing that I don't remember that damn vendor's name. BUT...... remember how I cut and paste from the original email when I was creating the vendor profile?
When I go back the original email, it looks like this:

Vendor name:
Vendor address: 163 Days Road, Regency Park 5010
Contact details: +6143 4255 496

We stared at it blank for 2 seconds, then I sighed heavily 
He started to made a small laugh like 'pufff' but I started cracking up! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Super paiseh too, cus after a while when we tried to change the currency from USD to RMB it won't show no matter what abbrievation we tried, I started shaking trying to hold in the laugh. I have to pretend that I was coughing

And then just now while I was walking back from work, I was walking behind a bunch of people right? Then people starts turning left and disappear in front of me while I kept on walking straight.
All of a sudden I saw this guy doing split along the walkway. 

I was like, WTF why would anyone split in front of the bus stop along the walkway??
But as I was approaching the guy, I notice that his split was quite awkward, cus his left leg was bending backwards and right leg was stretching straight all the way....
THEN IT FINNALY HITS ME, THE GUY FELL DOWN NOT DOING SPLIT LA!!! LOL!!!

Ok my apologies cus I am quite easily amused as you can tell.. XD
Wasn't that bad of a day so I thought I should write it down, hopefully one day if I'm down I can refer back to this and get myself a laugh.
Anyway, meeting Baos tomorrow, looking forward to that :DD

See you soon!!! ♥

so freaking unreal.

wasnt supposed to be back until next year... but what the hey right? I'm here :]
so a month ago Darren contacted me and told me that there's an opening in the Starwood Regional Office here in Singapore, & told me to go for it.
my resume was sent and I was told that it was unsuccessful at first, and I was like, 'fine, let's move on.'

then I got an email from the HR department out of the blue, and thats how I landed up with an interview with the digital marketing department.
so viola, I am gonna be in digital marketing, for unknown position thou :P
so grateful honestly. this is the job that I wanna achieve hopefully in 5 years time, but I got a chance to experience it now :)
please do a good job ebay.

hmmmm so weird to be back. I guess this is the first time when I am back, I don't feel as excited as before. I actually miss Raaaadelaide, a place where there's nothing much to do, hahaha.
I guess it's because I really enjoy this year, had so much fun. 
It is truly amazing, to fly almost 3500 miles to another country, and meet all these wonderful people.
I have not been appreciating them enough, but.. better late than never right? I am definitely gonna start appreciating more now.

amazingly wonderful people, my heartfelt thank you ♥

I have the most amazing rommates ever :] & this is undoubtly, the most enjoyable year i had among the 4 years that I have been in Adelaide ♥

freaking cute classmates :DDD jiayou for degree!! hopefully I will see you guys again someday :)

lecturers of ICHM! Kevin McMahon, my favourite & super duper cute lecturer with the mustache (ok I know that's not the main point but it's so cute cus whenever he talks the mustache moves along XDDD) and all! :DD Jacquline Skinner, friendly lecturer who is always generously giving us the help and time that we need :)

my drinking buddies and the boys of Group 33T & U of ICHM! :D Keep rocking guys!

Am gonna miss all of this so much... let's shine and rock the industry! 
BIG HUGS AND LOVESS!! ♥♥♥♥♥

You never really move on. They come into the back of your mind.
That person will always be there. You can not simply forget about the feelings you had with that person.
They might anger you, they might make you frustrated, they might make you sad.
You might even end up hating them.

But there’s a reason why you fell in love with them the first time.
You never forget them. They might cross your mind from time to time. You’ll never fall in love the same way.
But, you will fall in love again.